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I'd Really like to take this time to sit and think. Look upon last year and look forward to the rest of this year.

Its what date today? June 25th 2010 Its been half a year so far and so far we still have our house, I still have my car,I still have my sis, and I still have my parents. Besides that we're still struggling, financially...

Recently my priorities(school, God, Work, nursing school) have become harder. In other words, lately I've been feeling a big load on my back that I've been trying to handle with my hands. It almost feels like I'm listening to three people at the same time and its just not working cuz I only have two ears not three. Basically I feel pretty stressed at the moment. I am also feeling pretty depressed at the moment as well.

With these feelings its been taking away my focus in classroom and outta class activities. Instead of really cracking my back on some research or study time for classes I've been unproductive recently. My lack of focus has been distracted by my work, my wants, my needs, my car accident,my gf, my family, my life in general has been affecting me dramatically.

I wish I didn't have to work.
I wish I didn't have to go to school
I wish I hadn't gotten into an accident

Why do I work? To provide for myself to not burden my parents who are already stressed as it is. To have money available for leisure time with friends family and gf. To fix my car the way I've been dreaming of. That's why I work. Its for selfish reasons and unselfish reasons. To benefit me and those around me.

Why do I go to School? Because My efforts are worth more than money can repay me. My knowledge my whole being deserves to work for something more than just the struggle through which I see and live through right now.

DAMMM this accident! DAMMM this economy! And FUCKK it!
I wish I hadn't have gotten into an accident because now all my leisure money for friends and girlfriend have been diminished. Its become a struggle. Its become stressful to now think about should I use it now or save it for later. Its become stressful to see my car in the garage not being used. Its become stressful transitioning to a car with lower MPG :(. Gas another struggle. sighh

Days were getting brighter then the clouds came and took the sun away. Thats how I feel midway through this 2010 year.

lets all stay possitive tho (hence the title of the blog)
"Everything will come in time. Just as these years have gone by quick so will this hardship." -biggyjiggy


PEACE<3